Dust

I will return to dust..

I will not be summarily summoned
Body and Soul carried together
In glorious Ascension.

I will return to dust.

I will not be made to experience sheer bliss
Due to my purity of heart
Nor will I endure weeping and gnashing of teeth
Due to my sundry sins.

I will return to dust.

These sins will not be enumerated
And weighed against the good I have done
To determine where I belong for all eternity

I will return to dust.

My actions in this life
Will not secure my place
As a cow in the next.

I will return to dust.

Certainly not as a cow.

I will return to dust.

If my life flashes before my eyes
In the final moments
It will matter not
For none will know.

I will return to dust.

Diverge

It meant a lot to me that she was able to make it. I know things have been weird between us but we were able to put that aside at least for one night. I stood by the door looking out and saw her walking towards my house, unsure that she had the right place until our eyes met and she tossed me a wave. She looked different than I remembered. A little more weary; her youth slowly sewing a flag of defeat. I guess that she dresses a little bit differently now to. Jeans have been replaced by well-ironed slacks. Skimpy tops by a ruffled chemise. I felt somehow intimidated by her appearance, constantly reminding me of the ways in which she'd grown and in the ways in which I hadn't. I moved to hide the empty beer bottles from sight. I told her to have a seat hoping that my grab bag assortment of furniture would not be too inferior for her. Thankfully it wasn't.

As always she was intoxicating. Effervescent. I was drawn into her. She pulled poetry from me. We talked for hours with the sunlight slowly fading. She suggested we take a walk along the river. I hesitated worrying who might see us. She told me that they were through, so there was no need to worry. I worried anyway.

It was chillier than we had anticipated and we walked closely to feed on one another's warmth. I managed to slip my arm around her and she was not unreceptive. We stood momentarily beneath a flickering street light and were transported back. Back to before all of the ugliness, before all the lies, before we destroyed ourselves and each other. I knew then that I would never see her again. We would be successful in our reenactment that evening but come morning we would return to our separate worlds.

Our bodies moved as we had recalled them moving.

There was nothing to suggest the inevitable.

We slept, woke, and parted.